Is it a game? What the fuck? Like, shit, I know I don't understand. Hate this. hate that. hate everything. OMFGSTOPNOWJEBEZUZ. Yeah, whatev.

I'm almost beginning to hate you.

Post in this journal, and I will:
a) Tell you why I friended you
b) Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, et cetera
c) Tell you something I like about you
d) Tell you a memory I have of you
e) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you
f) In return, you must post this in your journal

I was reading my old journal entries and i sound like an annoying fag. Niiice. Was interesting to read though.. Brought back old memories. <3

I've been just thinking & reading old poems for about an hour or so. I think of the people I've lost, the love I've had. Some people I just want to say hello to again & ask how they're doing. To others & some the same I just want to apologize for the way I am...

I'm content, but I feel restless. Can such a contradiction exist? The ways I've changed scare me, but I don't want to turn back. I gave in to lust. I gave in to love again, after promising myself I wouldn't. This is just added to the other countless times. When I'm not with him I feel incomplete...

Some days I have no motivation. For this semester I pretty much fucked up school. & I don't even care. I think it's because I don't feel like I'm getting anything out of doing well; no rewards, nothing to make me feel good about myself. Then I lost the fear of getting in trouble for not doing my work, there's really no punishment. Unless you call an "F' punishment. My mom blames my lack of motivation & lack of attendence at school on Jeff. Whether I'm with him or not I don't want to be at that place filled with immature, fake fucks. He actually makes me want to do well...

Some days I just want to sleep. & Sleep. Just give up for a while. Not forever, but take a vacation from living. But I would want to take Jenna & Jeff with me haha.

I want to improve with my schoolwork & my friendships. I hope I can..